Struggling with motivation...

Hello all -

So today I'm really struggling with keeping myself motivated in just about every life aspect.  I had to force myself to do my Turbo Fire workout.  I'm still trying to finish the chapter for tonight's PMP study group.  I need to get the lawn mowed, but I'm out of time.  That'll have to wait until Sunday when I'm back from Chicago.  I just don't want to do anything but plop in front of that darn tv and shut the world out. 

For the first time since starting Weight Watchers, I'm not weighing in this week.  I can't bare having a gain 2 weeks in a row.  It's my own fault.  I did ok over the weekend at the wedding, but then something kicked in and I had fast food one day and then last night I ate a mushroom burger, tator tots, and potato skins.  It was way too much food and I felt sick after, but I didn't stop.  What is wrong with me this week?  After that, I decided today to crack down and eat well and workout.  I have not been perfect today, but definitely much better than the last few days.  Hopefully next week when I drag myself in to be weighed, it'll be a loss.  I just have to behave while I'm away. 

I'm also struggling today with being a little lonely.  I know you would never know this if you met me.  I always appear to be the happiest person, but it sucks being single this long.  I don't want to settle, so I'm not going to just go out with anyone, not that I've even been asked out lately.  Why is it that men can't see past my weight to the person I am?  I almost don't want to lose the weight just to try and find a guy that doesn't care about it.  But, 6 years later and I still don't have that guy, so I guess I'll try it the other way.  It's really a shame though that this is the case. 

Well, I'm off to Chicago tomorrow.  The good thing is that my friend Rox is going with me, so she'll keep me in check.  She's vegetarian, so we always get to eat at crazy raw and vegan places when we travel together.  I really hope to get in a lot of exercise walking around downtown Chicago.  I might even try a little outside running if we have time.  I'd love to run around the pier or the park. 

Well, off to attempt to finish chapter 5 and finish working.  Have a great week all!

-L-