The Ex Files

Last night's sleep was interrupted by dreams/nightmares of a few of my ex's.  So, I thought I would send a few messages out there to them.

Firstly, I have an ex who has been cyberstalking me for years.  He finds me every time I move.  He used to call me, but now I have no home phone, so he cannot.  C. T., you know who you are.  I'm sending this plea out to the universe in the hopes that you'll get this.  Please leave me alone.  We dated when I was 13.  I'm an adult now and I do not want to reconnect.  Stop looking me up and showing up as searches for me.  I get emails from these websites you visit looking for me.  Stop and move on.  Now, I know that sounds mean, but seriously, it's been 20 years.  I've moved on. 

The second ex I'd like to shout out to is my bud R. R.  I'm so glad you and I have remained friends all these years.  I know we were very young when we dated, but I wouldn't take back any of that time.  I hope we stay friends for many years to come and I wish you much happiness.

Thirdly, J. K., this message is for you.  We dated when I was a sophmore in highschool.  He was probably the sweetest boyfriend I've ever had and my first adult love.  I even still have the panda painting he did for me.  J, wherever you are, I hope you are happy in your new life.  You were a great guy and I wish you nothing but good vibes.

Lastly, E. C. T., We had a very rocky relationship for many years, which ended very badly.  Recently, you came up in a conversation with some friends and I've been thinking about you.  I just want to say to you that, while I hate the way things ended with us, I wish you and your wife a lifetime of happiness and I hope it is everything you were looking for.  While it's no secret I'm not a fan of who you chose, I am glad that you're happy and hope you stay that way.  Best of luck in your life.  You really were a great guy, just not the great guy for me. 

Ex files closed. 

Home!!!

So, I was able to get a flight home from Dallas last night, despite the issues with hurricane Irene.  I walked in the door around 1 am this morning.  My beautiful kitties missed me so much, that they didn't let me sleep at all.  Thankfully I get to take a comp day tomorrow, so I can take a couple of sleeping pills and go to bed early to try and get a normal day going tomorrow.

While I was away, my Insanity dvds came in the mail, so tomorrow I'm going to do the fit test and start the first workout.  I know it's a very difficult program, but I think I can do it.  If I could do P90X, I can do this.  I'm not sure I'll be able to do it on the road with all the jumping, but we'll see. 

Getting ready to watch The Wedding Date and then heading to bed early.  I'm going to make the attempt this week to get up and 6 am and workout to start my day.  I've tried doing this so many times and it never works, so hopefully tomorrow morning will be different. 

Before I sign off, I want to send a small prayer out to those that have been impacted by the natural disasters this past week.  I'm eternally grateful that my family in MD was able to stay safe. 

Hello from Dallas...

It's been a while since I've written anything.  For the last month I've been following Weight Watchers.  So far I've lost 7.6 lbs.  It's good, but I have such a long way to go to get to my goal of 130.  This week I've been in Dallas, TX for the Great American Trucking Show.  I've done ok with my eating, but I have had fries a few times, so I'm a little worried about my next weigh in on Tuesday night.  I may have gained.  I feel chunky tonight.  Ugh.

Anyway, I'm a little excited because tonight my Aunt Mia and Uncle John are driving here to meet up with me and have dinner.  It's been a while since I've seen them and spent any time together.  My Aunt Mia is one of my favorite people in this world.  She's who I aspire to become.  She's a successful woman in business as well as a wonderful wife and mother.  I've got the career path down, or at least on a good track.  Now, I'd like to find someone I could see spending the rest of my life with and starting a family.  I know what you're thinking.  Lucia is the girl that never wants to get married and have kids.  Well, some things changed as I got older.  The more I live, the more I want to share this life with someone.  I don't even know if I'll get to be a Mom.  And I don't know if I'll be a good one or not.  I do know that I'm tired of living my life alone.  I'm finally ready.  I mean really ready.  I don't know who my future husband will be yet.  I just know I haven't met him.  Hopefully soon he'll cross my path. 

1 more day in Dallas and then I head home tomorrow night.  I'm really hoping hurricane Irene doesn't delay my flight at all.  And I really hope my brother and his family will be safe in MD.  I'm praying for all of those that might be affected by this disaster that is about to happen.  Be safe everyone. 

-L-