Blast from my past...

So, last night I was out with some friends, celebrating one of their birthdays, and I ran into the brother of one of my ex-boyfriends, whom I haven't seen in years. We were together a very long time, and separated when he broke my heart. I hadn't really thought much about him for a long time, except when people would bring up stories, but I gotta say seeing a member of his family was so odd. It was great to see him all grown up, but it's awful that because of that, I am now thinking of the ex. It took me years to get over what he did to me. Now, it's like the wound is partially open again. Ugh. Maybe it was never really closed. Now I have to heal yet again. This is a vicious cycle that needs to end, now.

Mid Year's Resolution...a little late to be New Year's

I've been overweight for a long time now, but I wasn't always. Until my early 20's I was a pretty normal weight. Bad things happened, and I basically gave up, FOR YEARS. Now, I'm not saying I haven't started a ton of different plans and workout routines to try and fix this. I have tried almost everything. But, I never had the will power to keep any of them up. I'm my own worst enemy...aka self sabotage. Well, a friend yesterday made me see that I don't have to be like this. She helped me see that I'm worth more. And what's more, she is supporting me, no matter how many mistakes I make along the way. That's a true friend. Recently I bought an IPhone and my friend showed me this app called Losing It!. I downloaded it and started the plan yesterday. It's going to be a really tough road. I know it. But, I think I am finally ready to give myself some serious discipline. Yesterday I ate within my calorie range and even did a tough spinning class at Fitworks in Richmond Hts. It was customer appreciation day, so we got to spin outside, which was awesome! Today I decided to work from home and am about to do taebo on my lunch hour. Fingers crossed I can keep this momentum up.

Thank you to my friend for supporting me no matter what. If you can have just one person in your life that's like that, you're a rich person. Here's to healthy weight loss!

My trip to sunny FL

Well, this week has not been exactly what I expected. After arriving in Sarasota, things got a bit awkward when there was a misunderstanding regarding my personality. Then the sunburn came and settled on my lovely shoulders and back. Ugh! And the terrible blisters on my feet from all the sand walking! Ouch! It wasn't all a loss though. A few fun nights of drunken fun happened somewhere in the middle of this trip. And oh, outlet mall...need I say more? I just wish I had packed another suitcase or a few less clothes so I could shop more.

During these 7-8 days, I've not been able to relax like I really wanted and needed. I felt like I needed to hold back a lot, and not be me so I didn't offend anyone anymore. Hard to relax when you constantly have to think about what you're saying and doing. I think my next vacation will be a solo one. Maybe I'm not meant to have bunches of female friends. Life is so much simpler at home with my 2 kitties. Ya, I know how that sounds and I don't care. I'm coming home Lily and Butterscotch. I love you girls!